Overcome the feeling.

I don't know how to describe it.
I don't know how to put it into words.
I've felt lonely before,
but I always learnt to face it.

I feel like a burden and a waste of space,
just a human being full of disgrace,
I don't feel comfortable being myself
but I would not like to be anybody else.

Because I've learnt to fight my demons,
and I've learnt the hard way,
and I would not like to start this
in another body all over again.

I'm not a perfect human being
and I'm tired of life,
but I've though about it many times
and I've regretted it twice as much.

Yes, friends, I'm talking about suicide
I'm talking about giving pain
the power to end my life.

But I'm not,
and I won't,
no, I won't give up like this.
I will fight my demons and
overcome what I feel.

Cause I will only live once,
but I don't want to live like this.
I'd rather die,
than spend another day in my skin.

Yeah, that's too much to say,
but you don't understand
that I don't want to stay
and that I'm holding death's hand.

I want to run away
and I want to change my life,
but change scares me
even more than suicide.

Because I don't want to make more mistakes
than the ones I've already made,
I just want life to stop treating me
in a way I don't deserve.

I would change everything if I could,
from my thoughts, to my fears, to my looks.
Yeah I'd rather be another person with no fears and no thoughts,
I'd rather be a mannequin to be left outside alone.

And I wonder if you know,
how it really feels,
to be scared of your own mind,
and not being able to breathe.

So goodbye my friend,
I'll see you around another time,
I will try to overcome depression
and this feeling of suicide.